I continue to apply for grants, residencies, awards, contests, and scholarships.  It is something that I have been doing since I was a child and the results have paid off "big time".

​Given that I read a lot of books, I will write this "What Am I Reading?" column as a monthly blog post of book reviews.  Book reviews are an excellent way to support the work of authors.  By posting a review and rating of books on Amazon and Expedia, you can help increase the visibility of an author's work and potential sales.  I am paying it forward to all these authors and hope that you readers will do the same (for me as well).  My goal this year is to read 50 books in 2018.  Since January 1st, I have read 19 books.  According to Goodreads, I have read 34% of my 2018 goal.  

Since January 17 2018, I Have read the following books:

Erotic Stories for Punjabi Widows by Jaswal, Balli Kaur 

American Street by Zoboi, Ibi 

Known to Evil (Leonid McGill, #2) by Mosley, Walter

Home by Morrison, Toni

Piecing Me Together by Watson, Renée

The Golden Son by Gowda, Shilpi Somaya 

The Jumbies (The Jumbies #1) by Baptiste, Tracey 

Go Set a Watchman by Lee, Harper

A Brief History of Seven Killings by James, Marlon

Rise of the Jumbies (The Jumbies #2) by Baptiste, Tracey 

Gone Crazy in Alabama (Gaither Sisters, #3) by Williams-Garcia, Rita

Crown: An Ode to the Fresh Cut by Barnes, Derrick

Islandborn by Junot Diaz

The Help by Kathryn Stockett

These are the books I am currently reading 5 that I am actively reading at the moment:
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- The Belles by Dhonielle Clayton
-  Hurricane Child by Kheryn Callender
- The Marrow Thieves by Cherie Dimaline
​- The Help by Kathryn Stockett
- The Skin I'm In by Sharon G. Flake

I have found an efficient way to read more and in larger volumes.  I am also hoping to participate in a reading circle/book club community  in which I can discuss the books I read.

Reading books has added a lushness and vibrancy to my life and all the everyday things I do such as running on a treadmill or driving across town to errands and school visits.  Reading certainly brings me a lot of joy and reminds me of one of the things that  I loved to do as a child.

I hope you will check out some of these books I have reviewed below by many authors of colour.  And please rate and write even a short review (e.g., a word, a phrase, a sentence, or more) about the book you have read.  The authors will thank you.

Erotic Stories for Punjabi Widows by Balli Kaur Jaswal
Wow!  This was a book that was begging to be read.  Just look at the title.  As a children's and young adult writer and a Christian, I couldn't help but think, what would my colleagues think if this pops up on my newsfeed?  But in all truth, what a juicy story.  It takes place mostly inside of a Gudhwara (a Sikh temple) in a corner of London inhabited by a predominantly Punjabi population.  Nikki is a young protagonist, idealistic, reasonable, and bridging the gap between traditional Punjabi values and western expressions sensuality and romance.  These Punjabi widows, her students in a literacy class, find voice in self-expression and weaving intimate tales of the erotic nature-- all tastefully done of course.  The fundamentals are not liking it and neither are those who are trying to keep honour in the community by any means.  I liked this story.  It was very British.  Perhaps, it was the accent of the narrator.  However, it was a little predictable.  I feel like this story could have been told in any immigrant community whether around the temple or the mosque or the church or the synagogue with a whole host of ethnicities trying to bridge the gaps between the first generation and the aging immigrant parents and grandparents, oscillating between the desire to please and the need to find one's voice.  This story is fun and buoyant and although it has it's emotional tide, it does not leave you "cast at sea" for very long.  I hope this will be a film directed by Gurinder Chadha and starring  Parminder Nagra.  Oh, please could one of her best friends be Jamaican.  I do hope so.​

American Street by Ibi Zoboi
Interesting and familiar... weaving of traditional Haitian spirituality with an American story of immigration.  Tragic and whole and hopeful. This was a novel I had wanted to read since it's release.  Fabiola is a young woman who has left Haiti with her mother to live with family in Detroit.  Tragically along the way, her mother is detained for months.  This is a rare tale of a teenage immigrant experience told through her eyes.  This story is filled with many heartbreaking moments.  First, Fabiola's very real loss of her mother is palpable.  Secondly, the dream she had of an idealized America is extinguished with the reality of an economically-depressed and dangerous Detroit where one must fight (literally) to survive.  Third, the losses Fabiola gave up especially in the wake of the Haitian earthquake to then experience it so many times in the new country.  There are glimmers of hope as Fabiola navigates her own journey through this new land.  I don't want to give anything more away so you're going to need to read it yourself.​

Known to Evil by Walter Mosley
I did not particularly enjoy this book.  I know that Walter Mosley wrote a novel which was turned into a Spike Lee-directed movie called "Devil in a Blue Dress."  I never saw this movie although it was a big hit and my older brother had.  So when I saw this audiobook, I said, I should definitely read it.  If Spike Lee made a movie from a Walter Mosley book, then he should be great.  I was wrong.  Well, maybe it was THIS book or perhaps it was because of the arrogant cockiness of the lead character McGill or douchebaggery of it all.  I did not have a liking for the lead character at all.  I was bored.  I wanted to hurry up and get through the story.  I know it was a mystery and I usually don't read mystery but nothing interested in me and I did not care enough.  I also don't know if it was the actor's voice I didn't like which sounded flat in some parts.  I finished listening to the whole story though since I always like to give a story a chance.  I did not feel any suspence in the story.  The fight scenes were described with such arrogance it almost mocked the lead character.  I didn't take any of the story seriously.  And I wasn't sure if McGill had an open relationship with his wife or was everyone just straight up cheating on the others.  The fact that McGill risked his life to save a girl and hence also the girlfriend of his son seemed a little cliche and a bit stereotypical when it comes to the roles of women.  And speaking of cliches, this novel was full of them.  Walter Mosley, I will give your books a second chance but not with this one.​

Home by Toni Morrison
I listened to Home by Toni Morrison as an audiobook.  One of the challenges I have with authors  who read their own work is that they are not actors.  Just as I found with Ray Bradbury the Fahrenheit 911 audiobook, I loved listening to Toni Morrison's voice.  However, the tones and voice variations of the characters was limited and I had a difficult time following the story as well as who was talking.  Something about a family with the last name Money and a Korean war vet haunted by trauma.  There was a fight scene, some people killed, and a botched "gyneacologal" procedure.  That is about all I gathered.  Sorry.​

Piecing Me Together by Renee Watson
This book is a masterpiece.   It's treatment of class and the visibility of Black girls' bodies was one I have never seen before.  In the wake of videos released showcasing brutality enacted on the bodies of young Black women, Piecing Me Together attempts to bring the pieces together-- literally.  Jade is a young collage artist and this story is told through her eyes.  As in This Side of Home, author Renee Watson has made Portland the main setting but also a character in this book of the changing demographics.  This book is a great study of Black girl friendships within the community (Lee Lee and Jade's own neighbourhood), across communities (Sam is also poor and a white ally), and class (Maxine is a mentor).  I love Renee's treatment of all of these issues in a gentle and moving way.  Thumbs up.​

The Golden Son by Shilpi Somaya Gowda
I think I am in love with books set in India or about India or the Indian diaspora. I found this book very romantic and dreamy, tragic and realistic.  The Golden Son has been described as a coming of age book and I guess it technically is.  Would it be qualified/classified as a new adult book?  I found the tale and detail quite predictable as it is the "hero's journey" in every archetypal way in an Indian context but the details are so lush, rich,and full of angst.  Set in a small village in Gujarat and at a Dallas hospital, this story incorporates a cast of varied characters and describes some difficult cultural issues including dowry crimes, domestic violence, hate crimes, and making your way as a young adult, sometimes against your parents' and communities wishes.  Great book!  It would make a lovely movie...​

The Jumbies by Renee Watson
I realize now that I didn't write a review for this book.  It was a great read and a nice introduction to Trinidad for children.

​How many times could I tolerate narrator Reese Witherspoon saying the N-word?  The word was quoted at least 4 dozen times.  I understand it is set in the South (Macon, Alabama to be exact) and it takes place 20 years after the famous trial of Atticus Finch, described in To Kill A Mockingbird by his daughter, then 6-year old Scout.  Now the narrator is an close omniscient one who knows all of the perspectives of a now 26-year old renamed heroine Jean Louise.  This audiobook was far too much tell and less show.  I really wanted to get more plot which was 70% of the book and the last 30% was dialogue.  It is focused on the racial politics of the white working class and middle class souterners, descendants of the planting class/farmers of the enslavement period.  Jean Louise has returned from years in New York City with "new fangled ideas" that collide with the racism and conservatism of her childhood community which has seemed to revert to the past.  Words like mongrelize, NAACP, klansmen, and g*$#amn it are thrown around often to shape the audio landscape, preoccupations of this time period.  Atticus, the town lawyer, his sister Alexandra, uncle Jim who is the retired town doctor, and the now retired housekeeper also make appearances in this version but everyone has aged and the thing seems outdated compared to the ideas of what Jean Louise feels she cannot live without.  I felt this book was like an apologetic text to describe the psychology of the conservative white southern bigot in comparison to the liberal white southerner.  Informative but I felt like the topic could have been adequately tackled in essay and in no way does this remind me of "To Kill A Mockingbird", the book upon which it was based.  Harper Lee's second and final book "Go Set A Watchman", I felt, tried to answer the many questions the author accumulated over a lifetime.  Lee died shortly after its publication.

A Brief History of Seven Killings by Marlon James
Another name for this book might have been A Brief History of Jamaican Curse Words or A Brief History of the Multitude of Execution Styles.  This book was difficult to read in the first 20 or so pages so I insisted on the audiobook.  I loved the readings when a few of readers actually had authentic Jamaican accents.  Unfortunately, some of the readers were either African-American or white-Americans obviously didn't get the Jamaican right.  In fact, it was very laborious and painful to listen to at times.  There were 2 other actors who had accents but they sounded like they were from another island.  Anyway, jargon and language aside, this book had me but I began to feel quite lost.  I originally thought it was about the Bob Marley assassination attempt and it was.  Author Marlon James referred to him as "the singer" however these chapters were short in comparison with the devotion of this book to the crack/cocaine trade in the United States.  It was an education of sorts and left the Kingston slums and jetsetted to Miami, Brooklyn, and the Bronx.  There were even "name drops" of Mississauga, Toronto, and London.  I was quite impressed.  But, one of the things I felt challenged again is Jamaica being painted in a highly violent and scary light.  I couldn't expect it to be any different.  Come on!  This book was about a drug war and described not just seven but MANY, MANY killings.  Nevertheless, having finally had the chance to listen to this book by audio, meant I could put to rest my curiosity.  I had seen Marlon James interviewed about this book, describe his process, purchased my own autographed copy, and cheered on his Booker Prize win, especially after he received almost 80 rejections of his manuscript.  My complaints were really about the too harsh, realistic, vernacular used in the violent interactions between US (CIA agent and a New Yorker reporter), Jamaica (various gang members and an unsuspecting woman with changed identity), Cuba, and Colombia.  This book was more about politics and the drug trade and how those worlds intertwined from the 1970s to early 1990s.  How much is fictional or non-fictional, I am not too sure other than the references to "the Singer", the Jamaican politicians of the 1970s, Colombian drug trader Griselda Blanco, and a number of name droppings in between.  Very good book if you like crime novels, music history, and mysteries.  A challenge if you write for younger audiences like I do.​

Rise of the Jumbies by Tracey Baptiste
This book was a nice compliment and continuation of the first.  I like how it took a turn to integrated West African water goddess stories with the Jumbies plot.  It took my mind out and gave me some closure about certain characters like Malik, Bouki, and Dru.  The children are in danger and I admit through each suspenseful twist of the plot, I couldn't wait for resolution... for now.  I also appreciate how author Tracey Baptiste introduces the African diaspora, transatlantic slave trade, and returnees/Ababyo to young readers.  A great read!​

Gone Crazy in Alabama by Rita Williams-Garcia
Oh my gosh, Rita Wiliams-Garcia.  Is there really any serious, heavy topic you can't write about for young audiences with levity and hope?  Gone Crazy in Alabama felt like how I imagine life in the south might be... slower pace of life, familial, old-fashioned methods still maintained like homemade starched sheets and preferring homemade over store-bought items, families that stick together no matter what, and relations and "next of kin" in close proximity.  Rita captured all of these and more.  I felt it and then her plot took turns that I did not foresee.  Since I do not want to give it away, I will say she explained mixed-race Black ancestry very well in a way that I had not seen in other books.  (It's also a topic I am exploring in a manuscript.)  Such a masterpiece Rita.  I hope this will not be the last of the Gaither sister series.​

Crown by Derrick Barnes, illustrated by Gordon C. James
Great book!  Really beautifully told and such an honour of Black manhood, humanity, and hairstyles.  It was so lovely and touching.  A perfect book to lift any boy's self-esteem.  I took this as a library book but I am considering purchases for a couple young men that I know.  Stunning illustrations.  Natural.

Islandborn by Junot Diaz, illustrated by Leo Espinoza
I enjoyed reading this picture book but it was very wordy.  I know that editors and the publishing industry disagrees about the maximum number of words in a picture book. My own picture books hover around 1, 000 words.  Word count aside, I loved Junot's reading of this story.  It's quirky and has his humor woven through it's pages and hidden jokes that I know adults will understand but kids will get the innocence and insistence of its character Lola.  The illustrations are dreamy and gorgeous.  The metaphor of the giant bat/dictator was very clever and effective.  Good work.​

Nevertheless, I appreciated Junot's mix of activism, politics, storytelling, and children's books. Overall, the event was well done however I do have some challenges with "the talk" portion which I hope to share with the respective parties. I hope that this will not be the last time a bestselling award-winning children's book author includes Toronto on their book tour. We also need more immigration stories for kids. ​

In my imagination, Lola and Malaika are friends and they meet at a summer camp for Caribbean immigrant kids.  Hey, I think this might make an amazing picture book.  What do you say Junot Diaz, Namrata Tripathi, and Summer Edward?

     At this point in my writing career, I feel that I am ready to venture into the unknown... to go where few Canadian children's literature writers have gone before... to embark on the final frontier.  Ladies and gentlemen: It is time for me to find an agent.  My American colleagues are probably thinking, "What?  You don't have an agent?"  And Canadian heavyweights like Tim Wynne-Jones and Teresa Toten are thinking, "What's the big deal?" While my Canadian colleagues are thinking, "$$$$$$$" because although in Canada, an agent is unnecessary for publication, an agent can demand higher advances for clients and negotiate better contract conditions for the author.  Agents also help to retain and sell the rights for translations, theatrical adaptations, and film options.  For a Canadian writer like me, an agent can mean the difference between writing as a side hustle  to full-time writer income status (the ultimate goal here).  This is because US publishers pay higher advances than Canadian publishers.  Most US publishers do not accept "unagented" manuscripts, that is, those which are not represented by a literary agent.  Since this is the case, it makes sense to find an agent.

     It has been a long and difficult decision for me to find an agent.  First, it required me to get over the fact, accept, and declare that I am a Writer.  (Yes with a capital letter.)  It also required me to quickly abandon all of my insecurities and "imposter syndrome" complexes and recognize that yes, I am an excellent writer and that yes, I can be successful at my craft.  I had to learn to not fear future successes.  I essentially needed to take my writing career very seriously.

     Secondly, I realized that having an agent would help me to delegate and share the tasks of being an author/presenter... these include the roles that I have been taking on as I plan out my writing career, find publishers to submit manuscripts to, and negote contracts.  An agent would do all of these as well as help me to decide which of my stories to prioritize, prepare a manuscript for submission, and negotiate the terms of a contract.  Although, I have employed a literary lawyer and consultant for the latter, an agent does this job as well which would free up my time more so I can focus on promoting myself, youtube videos, social media, appearances, and most importantly, writing.

     Thirdly, I have been a full-time teacher since I begun this writing journey (and since 2003).  My schedule is increasingly busy-- between my work responsibilities, presentation and promotional schedule, grant applications, manuscript submissions, writing, and life.  It is a gruelling schedule that I have been able to maintain but in the long run, I will need to think about sustainability.  I realize now that delegation and changes need to be made to achieve more balance in my life and longevity.

     Also, my stories celebrate diversity.  I know that the United States has a larger market for diverse stories and books.  I know both Canada and the United States have a need for these stories.  I hope to continue to publish stories in Canada but also the United States and the world.  My first American published book will be "Harriet Tubman: Freedom Fighter" by Harper Collins Children's Books.

     Lastly, I had an "aha moment" that when I think of all of my favourite authors, such as this group of my 15 favourite women's authors, they all have agents.  I aspire to be like them and get my many stories out in the world.  Hence, an agent will be indispensable.  

     In conclusion, I realize that things in Canada are very different than in the United States when it comes to the publishing industry.  I believe that I am blessed. My hard work has resulted in my ability to write and attain four books published and 2 new ones under contract (2019) and 2 more close to signing (2020).  (And still there are others I am working on.)  As I see the wonderful Black films such as Black Panther and A Wrinkle in Time, my colleagues to the south releasing bestselling and award-winning novels such as The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas, Piecing Me Together by Renee Watson, and The Belles by Dhonielle Clayton, it makes me realize that the TIME IS RIPE for Black stories and the TIME IS NOW for telling my own. And for this, I will need help to do so.  So, I have taken my goal from vision board 2017 and my action word for 2018 to reACTIVATEthis my goal of finding an agent.  I am so excited, nervous, and ready.  I thank everyone who has given me ideas, shared, and taken an interest so far.  I will keep you updated!!!

From January 25 to February 23, I delivered 24 events ranging from "Snuggle Up and Read" to "Literacy Week" events to "Black History Month" presentations to storytimes to book signings in Montreal, New York City, Toronto, Kingston, Richmond Hill, Markham, Vaughan, Brampton, and Mississauga. 
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Carnival/Black History/African Liberation Month 2018 events
February 2018
Friday, February 2  10:30-11:30am Malton Library, Mississauga, ON, Canada
Saturday, February 3 11am-12pm Richmond Hill Library, Richmond Hill, ON, Canada
Saturday, February 3 2-4pm Totsapalooza in Toronto, ON, Canada
Sunday, February 4 2-4pm Chapters Brampton in Brampton, ON, Canada
Friday, February 9 10:30am Storytime Bank Street Book Store in New York, NY, USA
Saturday, February 10 11am Featured Story Time Author Books of Wonder (18th street location) in New York, NY, USA
Saturday, February 11 1:30pm Storytime Greenlight Bookstore (Prospect Gardens location) in Brooklyn, NY, USA
Sunday, February 11 11:30am Featured Story Time Author Books of Wonder (84th street location) in New York, NY, USA
Friday, February 16 Black History School presentation, Markham, ON, Canada
Saturday, February 17 2-5pm Booksigning at Yonge & Eglinton Indigo bookstore, Toronto, ON, Canada
Tuesday, February 20 1-2pm Malaika's Winter Carnival Storytime at Parkdale Public Library in Toronto, ON, Canada
Wednesday, February 21 1-2pm Malaika's Winter Carnival Storytime at Barbara Frum Public Library in Toronto, ON, Canada
Thursday, February 22 and Friday, February 23 Malaika's Winter Carnival at School Presentation, Mississauga, ON, Canada (four presentations each day)
Saturday, February 24 CANCELLED 11:15am Malaika's Winter Carnival Storytime at High Park Public Library in Toronto, ON, Canada
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Malaika's Carnival Story Time Quebec
Montreal, QC, Canada
January 27, 2018
11:00am 
La Petite Librairie Drawn & Quarterly 
176 Rue Bernard Ouest
Montreal, QC, Canada

January 28, 2018 
2:00pm
Babar Books bookstore 
Pointe-Claire (Montreal west island), QC, Canada

January 2018 Literacy Week 
Thursday, January 25 School presentation, Thornhill, ON
Friday, January 26 School presentation, Kingston, ON
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     I worked through many challenges in this period.  I was (and still am) teaching full-time Core French to Grade 6-8 and Grade 8 Language.  I have a very accommodating principal at my school this year.  On the half days I presented, I realized that I needed the other half of these days to do the other sides of my writing career-- the administrative stuff, respond to e-mails, the meetings, the deadlines, follow-up, confirm bookings... that was during the week that I did not teach at the school I worked at.  In addition to teaching and presenting and travelling, I also marked assignments, completed report cards, and parent-teacher interviews.  It was quite a juggling act and it wasn't perfect.  I didn't get my hair professionally done into a "trademark style" as I had done for my past book events nor did I get the time to do my beauty maintenance.  There was the weekend in New York City when all of the public transit was wonky and routes changed and travel times increased... There were days where I had two presentations in two different locations.  Or the time in Montreal when the bus driver told me to get off her bus and go on to the wrong bus.  And, I haven't posted monthly youtube videos in 2018 as I had hoped.  Nor, the one presentation that I showed up for that didn't happen because in the end the library changed its mind but I didn't change my calendar.

     But there have been successes... many.  One of these successes was maintaining my workout schedule through it all.  I promised myself in 2018 that I would be consistent with my physical health and I am nearing the end of my 13-week training for a 10 kilometre run.  I received a lot of positive feedback about my presentation and made changes along the way.  I feel my presentations are now more informative, entertaining, and high-energy.  I continue to receive more invitations to present and have engaged more people in conversations around my books and the issues discussed.  I travelled a lot and connected with family and friends I have not seen in a long time.  I have also received the notification of receiving a few Writer's Reserve and a Theatre Creator's Reserve grants through the Ontario Arts Council.  Thank you very much Young People's Theatre, Groundwood Books, Lorimer, and Wolsak & Wynn for believing in my projects.

     What's next?  March Break is around the corner.  I am looking forward to more self-care and reconnecting with my family and friends.  I am also doing the final edits for a picture book manuscript that I had been working on for six years.  (My announcement shall go out soon.)  I am seeking an agent and putting more time and energy into the process.  I am also making some  adjustments on my teaching career.  In addition, I continue to work toward making my research trips in Brazil and Jamaica a reality.  I also look forward to more book signings, appearances, presentations, and school visits over the next several months.  And of course, I will keep you posted through this blog, my newsletters, and social media.